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HOW?
Woah.
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it is just so hard for him!T-Rex Trying To Squeegee His Windshield…
#TRexTrying
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T-Rex Trying To Hang Curtains…
#TRexTrying
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today irrevocably
Laxadaisical day of worry and
Ununderstood unbelonging.
Satisfyingly,
My day goes
I hear bits
Underscored by more hearsay
of your day and
your day and yours—-
We are all connected, I think,
but this
is not my puzzle part—-
I am foreignly concave
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shanti shanti
How goes it? I write from the depths of post-therapeutic stupor. I am watching a George Harrison tribute dvd I got my mom for her birthday years ago and iz goood. I just ate some spicy curry rice and chicken —homemade as usual but mom is doing most of the cooking, I must admit. I tried reading the great Gatsby again but I think my mind knows it is overkill so I haven’t gottenpast the first fifty pages without skimming aimlessly. My dog is fat but fit; she moves slowly but barks energetically and is still playful with her bones etc. The other day she had some bloody discharge out of her gums which went away but gave mom and I a scare. In the area of family getting sick my grams recently caught pneumonia and was hospitalized over in Dallas which also gave us a scare. Lately everything’s been terrifying in its severity and threateningness levels. But I am stronger than I thought, even giving out doses of love where it isn’t necessarily warranted, but giving is always rewarding, so there’s no way to devolve that math equation,; giving is about what I get and vice versa. My new meds and group therapy have me levelled out in ways I might not yet grasp. Touche’, prescription drugs, Touche’! And a round of applause for my bravery and level of experimentation. Somuch of my life has been perfectionism leading to anxiety and now I am just being and waiting and seeing. I can compare this blog to my sister’s blog but there are so many better ways to spend my time. She is at the Kite Koop
which is I think at thekitefamily.blogspot.com so if you ever want to get your mom on that’s where to go. Lets see what else? I am looking for clients of translation of documents in Spanish or English to and from those two languages, but the pickin’s are slim! Brought to you by s’mores snack bites and orange Gatorade. -
Not. A debutante.
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Cause my olda frenz think I am smart, good at chem, and love jesus
I like my blazers and I like my meds. Things will get better but things are good. Updating hiiighly sober , to AA levels, from my second mobile droid. Wondering about love, life, and distance. Vh1 special on the essence of metal. Mom’s car was stolen! Public transit is not safe! Eating well and writing clearly. I am epically forgiving right now so honesty is valued. Thank you raemoods for last st.patties day and the DKM’s! What a treat.
old friends, bfast pizza or shopping?I coulda written this in high school. Oy vey,
E.Money -
djembe
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cigarettes
Hundreds. None post-coital. Lounging is happening. Walking of Chloe is happening. A few trips of necessity to new York for scripts. Prescripts. Okay so what really is my life now…I need a meme and to deal with the present. C4 sent her birthday greeting. I have as always this distance. Distance is healthy right? I am in a program for depression and whatnot that takes up my days. I miss people and my version of sanity. Insanity is all it seems like now. Mother is patient. I feel like a patient. Things will get better, or so says a card from distant daddy. That’s like saying … I draw a blank. No time for me it seems but I have no kids so can’t complain. This is me on my Droid wondering why as usual and being grumpy, many months almost entirely sober and not minding it. I fear meeting old friends because my priorities are different than they were in say college. I am almost never alone. Watching ‘the visitor’ which is a tasteful flick. Want to be a drummer in a city park so I will need a drum! And for the city to accept and love me on my own again. I pickle but I relish. That’s my metaphorical life right now. I love and miss my old friends often. I fear planning for the next steps, mostly cause of the uncertainty. A high five to katie would pep me up. Alas. Viewing Facebook just reminds me of what I have missed. Sadface. I guess I can give was my new address.
